expecting our 3rd....

I know this post is quite late; but as most of you know- we are excepting our 3rd sweet baby.  I am beyond thankful and excited to share this news.  God has taught Mike and I a lot about pregnancies, the gift of life, and what an aweful pregnant girl I am, truly.  I sure have tried.  Even though my body goes into complete alien form of getting every bug known to man- even if it is 10 miles ago- it doesn't matter- i'll get it, my tummy pops out oh so early, and I just can't sleep enough.  We are hanging on now that I am in my 2nd trimester and almost 18 weeks along.  I know, I know, I am just now blogging about it because pregnancy has become a tender area of my heart.  God has taught me how to lean on him in this area more than any area I've experienced before.  I had two early miscarriages this last year, and as sad and hard as they were, our heavenly Savior opened his arms for me to fall into them.  And I did.  I have learned that life is so so tender, and short, but most of all an incredible gift.  So- for me to blog about this pregnancy has been harder than most, because my heart didn't want to get fully on board with another sweet baby until I was certain everything was A- ok.  Through many doc appointments, ultra sounds, and nerve racking appointments- God again- has shown me He will care for me, bless me, and does indeed love me as his blessings are overflowing.  I can't tell you the tears I have shed in my OB's parking lot.  Tears of sorrow, and tears of complete joy- last week I sat with my head on the steering wheel for about 5 minutes just listening to God tell me, "no matter what we've walked through, He is there, He knows my heart, He cares, and only He can bless me with this child."  I had been nervous that day about having an ultra sound (satan likes to remind me often of my losses at times)- and when I saw our baby moving, have hands and feet, a healthy heart beat, I choked- that is really another child....every loss was a victory that day.

I praise God that I made it through the first trimester.  Bagels, oh how I loved you.  They got me through those green in the face days- and as odd as this is- when I was super morning sick feeling - the smell of coffee was comforting at times.  Weird, I know- because most smells sent me over the edge. Then, I got the flu when I was 10 weeks pregnant- that knocked me out for a good 2 weeks- I guess God wanted to me to rest.  I kept asking him why this was so hard- especially with 2 little ones demanding mommy's time. But, we made it through.  Thankfully!

My 2nd trimester has been so much better, more energy, still tired, but can do lots more in a day than before.  I still take a little snooze some/most days when my kiddos nap.  How thankful I am that graham is almost 4 and still naps.  He is a great sleeper, and loves getting his "day rest" in as he calls it.  I feel lazy when I lay down with the kids because I feel like the laundry in my house is a business.  It is non-stop, day in, and day out.  I don't know how I manage to have so much laundry in one day. But, my body still tells me to rest before 3 kids are here.  So, I do. 

In the midst of being a mom, a wife, and cook, cleaner, and grocery store shopper, today I couldn't have been more thankful to be a busy mom.  God will give us all we need, even in the midst of illnesses, craziness, and a packed schedule- His love and light is by far deeper than anything this life has to offer.  So, I pray as I go through the rest of this pregnancy that God will show me the things in life that mean the most, and what a miracle it really is-really.

Thank you all for joining our family in prayer as we pray for this little one.  We are thankful!