why i have a blog...

As a young child as early as I can remember I loved playing with baby dolls, house, the whole family mothering love started early for me. I have a lot of faults and the more you are around me, the more you will see them. The one thing I have always tried to do in life is to celebrate each new day with joy! Weather a friend is coming over for dinner or a family member stopping through town....it's such a part of excitement for me to share my little family with them. Going back to me as a child- with that being said- children have always been a dream of mine. God put that desire in my heart at a young age. As most of you know two yrs after Mike and I got married we experienced two miscarriages. One was further along than the 2nd one. But, through that hardship and pain, my children now are a picture of thankfulness to my heart. God is there! God is here!
The last two months have been like a roller coaster for our family. Mike has been a huge support to us all. Poor Ellie has been sick almost once a week for about 3 months now. As you all know a sick child yet alone a baby is extremely hard to watch them hurt so much. Sometimes I feel completely helpless. I have been able to spend lots of time in the wee hours of the night praying over my children, since recently we'd have to give ellie a little more night attention than normal. Through this prayer time, and the stillness, quietness, and peacefulness of the night- God has taught me a lot of me! The word that is constantly spoken to me over and over is- "give." I want ellie to feel good, to be able to go to the nursery with other kids, to hang out more with our friends- but with a sick child (and fever), we are having some stay at home time for now. With that being said- I know that through this hardship we will always look back and see God's mighty hands covering our family and our home. Through my miscarriages I felt very alone and for the first time in my life wondered if God really cared??? Was he really there? 5 years later- I look back and see how even though I didn't feel him....oh wow yes, how he was surely there---holding us both sooooo tightly.
So this blog is a way for me to share with those that have taken small investments in our family. The good times, fun times, difficult times, and real praises within the walls of our house. The love that binds us each day, the joys that we celebrate, the ways you can pray for us, and the realness of our life. I started this blog when graham was in the nicu- it's a story of our family and the miracles of our children graham and ellie. This is us. I have nothing to show but the miracle and realness of our family of 4.